Thursday, April 29, 2004
pitter patter rain rain rain...
rain rain....i love rains at night...cept when i wanna do outdoor activities =P...so cooling..so refreshing..
today almost missed my exams..dunno wat happened..i juz slept so soundly..n din even noe my alarm clock went off..lucky i woke up in time..if not ....die man....although i dun tink i gonna do well for it anyway..
boring day..nothing interesting to write about...so juz sit back n relax in the coolness of rain....=)
logged ; 10:20 PM
GRAPHICS SUX BIG TIME...
haiz..sian..later having graphics paper...i juz hate graphics...considered to be my worst module together with dynamics...juz attempted the toopid graphics past yr papers..cannot do...sian..demoralised liao
anyway yan juz told me he booked a chalet le..so .igualans...we r going to have our chalet!!!~ 4-5 July 2004...place: SENTOSA... hope everyone can make it..we all long time dun haf gathering le..tiz is a good opportunity..=P..
sian...i tink i going to flunk graphics..unless tomolo i got the special ability to c the shape..
logged ; 12:28 AM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
i dun wanna to count anymore le.....
我怕了。。。
logged ; 12:08 AM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
woohoo...finally another paper had finished...4 more to go...argh..cannot wait for holidays to come..i wanna go out n play...
tink today maths paper i shd be able to pass..not necessarily score well..but tink can pass...wateva juz happy it was over..after all i din really do much maths this sem..so if can..i tink i happy liao..
was very tired after the paper..hence went home n nap..instead of joining e guys for rev..den slept for a while..got bored..went online n rot...happened to meet sam there..he still v sian bout his hp..curse tt assehole who picked his hp..hate ppl who pick n dun return...*opps*...haha..then yan also came online..he too feeling super bored..haha..so the three no lifers went to JE for kopi break..den went sam hse to play PS..haha..long time nv go his hse le..=P...hmm..i like exams over le hor?...lOlz..
at night went to watch sleague..oooo...long time no watch le...quite great to be back...=P..enjoyed the game..pretty good game..n nice crowd too...the atmosphere..the "ref kayu" chanting, the action..man i certainly missed them alot..=P...so happy to be back wif Sleague...yoohoo....
yawnz..a bit sleepy..today let myself played for half day..enuff le..recharged le..time to hit the books again!!!! exams kuai dian finish ah...
28 days loh..
logged ; 10:37 PM
I LUV TO HOLD BUDDHA LEGS..WILL HE HELP ME?
hmm wondering shd i go zzz..or keep on doing my maths..
argh..i hate University mathematics..simply sux..only 5-6 tutorials per sem yet they taught so much...kaozz...alwiz got a feeling tt i nv took maths in Uni one..cept when come to exams..
okie..i juz being sore here...i shd haf practise on my own..and not juz before the exams..but then...I AM LAZY MAH..wat to do...sometimes feel tt i pretty useless oso..22 yrs old still can tink..still so diao er lang dang..i see some of my frens already studying v hard coz they wanna haf a good future..hmm..sometimes i feel so uselss..why i cannot be like them? -shakes head- when i will be serious...
okie...holding my dearest exam pal's (Mr Buddha) leg now..sometimes i oso feel i damn zai...1 sem work..i 1 day can finish...juz tt i not good only..but i managed to cover it k...hmmm...is tt supposed to be a good thing after all? hope mr Buddha bless me again..
k la..yan said i shd go sleep..then tomolo got "golden god" for the paper..hope so...maybe i wake up a bit earlier to go thru the notes again..
oh anyway ARSENAL R THE CHAMPIONS...so happy...i tink they really deserved it..and i admired tt team spirit..long time i nv such spirit in Arsenal le...v happy for them...to those who laugh at Arsenal at e start of the season....HOHOHO...Gunners proved u ppl wrong!!!!~
Champions Always Champions Always Ole Ole Ole...
保护
你把门轻轻关上离开他的谎话 失望比悲伤强烈疲倦的泪留下
你心里有幅相框 爱应该像个天堂 结果爱原来更像 无止尽的流浪
你忽然停止说话靠在我肩膀上 一瞬间心在摇晃有抱你的渴望
翻往日美好时光 让我们乱了方向 我想起无辜的她正在等我回家
很抱歉不能陪你到天亮 很抱前不能像从前一样 空荡的夜风变凉
把我的外套披上 答应我 好好的让我送你回家
很抱歉不能抱紧你不放 很抱歉只能藉给你肩膀 无助时逃进过往
是最危险的地方 我只能 这样保护你 请你原谅
我们站在月光下影子拖的好长 像怀念无法隐藏被摊在大街上
你的泪无声落下 打湿了我的胸膛 现在的情不自禁会是以后的伤
Another Andy Hui song for u ppl..tink his new album rox..=P...
Tomolo night i gonna go watch Sleague...Albirex Vs Tampines..long time nv c sleague le..wanna juz go out tomolo...anyone wanna join me? hehe....as usual i will b alone...=)
Oh and sam lost his hp today..super suay..anyone got spare fone to lend him?
Welcome to the Lost Hp Club brudder...=P
today pretty happy...=) little things happened again
27 days...
logged ; 1:00 AM
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Defeated..but hope i not OUT....
MORE ON WAR ON COE....
It proved to be a black saturday for the Fat's Army. The Republic launched 2 attacks on State of Dynamics and City Comm Studies on Saturday. However due to some thunderstorm on the night before, the Army's preparations were seriously hampered. As a result, the troops were seriously beaten and defeated. But the Republic vowed to come back stronger with the next wave of attacks. Stay tuned...
Haiz...so sianz...dun tink i gonna do well for dynamics le...keeping my finger crossed for Comm Studies though..today din do much...read n studied a bit bout maths..gonna push my self for it...ARGHH!!! but i juz keep feeling so sleepy n thirsy..issit sign of sickness ah?..mmmm
26 days and counting....
logged ; 6:24 PM
Saturday, April 24, 2004
i am so dead....
sick n got 2 papers in 4 hrs times...n i not yet prepared fully...
bless me..
logged ; 3:01 AM
Friday, April 23, 2004
WAR HAD BEGUN....你怕了吗？ 我很怕。。。。
Good Evening ladies n gentlemen
here another special edition of Bui-NewAsia special report on War on Common Engineering 1. At 1330 hrs today (Spore time), Republic of Ah Fat launched its first wave of attacks on Common Engineering Kingdom. The attacks were concentrated on the state of Electronics and lasted for 2.5 hours. Both troops battled ferociously and damages were severe. Due to a lack of terrain understanding, the Republic troops suffered a couple of setbacks in the attacks. Mainly on the Op Amp and Logic Gates towns. At press time, damageds were still being estimated, but the Republic is hoping for a limited damages.
Commander of Army, General Benjing said, " Our troops mainly suffered terrible losses at the towns of Ops Amp & Logic Gates. The tricky terrains of Ops Amp were pretty unexpected and we admitted a lack of study was done on logic gates. However we r hopeful that damages are kept at a minimum. We can only pray now as we doing the calculations of the losses."
According to The Black House, there will be 2 series of attacks on Saturday. However the times are yet to be announced, insiders are predicting an attack in morning and afternoon each. And the areas are believed to be State of Dynamics and The Comm Studies County.
Stay tuned for the next edition of WAR ON COMMON ENGINEERING...
nitez n sweet dreams..
logged ; 12:16 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
The Battle is about to begin......
BREAKING NEWS
The Republic of Ah Fat had earlier, in a press conference, announced that it will be launching a war on the terrorist plagued nation, United Kingdom I of Common Engineering. The first wave of attacks are expected to commence in around 18 hours' time. The Republic's spokeperson had also commented that the war will be expected to last for 2 weeks, and no efforts will be spared in bringing the terrorist nation down and restore peace to the region. The United Kingdom I of COE consists of a total of 8 states and the Republic will be launching a series of aerial and land attacks on the states over the period of 2 weeks. According to reliable sources, the first wave of attacks is likely to occur at the G161 state of Electronics at 1330 hours, 22 Apr 2004 , Singapore time.
Leading the troops this time will be the seasoned General Benjing, also known as Mr Fat to his foes on the battlefield. In the press conference, he said "This time, the war is not going to be easy at all. Preparations had been less than ideal, but then we are hopeful, with the determination of our troops and probrably with a bit of luck, we are able to defeat this demonic state. We asked the public to render their utmost support to the troopers. Of course support from a particular person will be extremely great, but then we dun ask for much. Together we shall charge, live or perish, we fight for the peace and glory of Lord Ah Fat!!!!~"
Indeeed strong words from a strong leader. However intelligences revealed that the Republic's preparations had been poor, hampered by the occasional technical problems like "MSN", "Soccer" and "Coffee Breaks". Hopefully GOD will help them this time.
For more updates on the war, stay tuned to Bui-NewsAsia. The place where all the latest things happen.
logged ; 7:36 PM
The Bridges had fallen...will I?
woohoo!!~ chelsea lost..so happy...=P okie la..since is yan fav team..dun be mean...but i dun like the way makelele fake...super blatant loh...put even pires to shame...anyway way to go monaco..tink they r really good ahz..no fluke..
had a pretty good day...managed to clear some doubts over electronics..tink left part 2 to go....muz gambatte!! argh 1 more day le....hope i ready to go...hmmm found out genting trip changed to 9th May le...mean i cannot go..n tink the rest of igualans not going too...pretty disappointed...coz i been looking forward to the trip..nv travel wif the guys before....haizzz...but then...wat to do..hope there is next time loh..=(
ohh nicol highway collapsed earlier today..pretty surprised such thing happend in spore..alwiz tot spore structures pretty safe..but then this juz show how u predictable life can be...one moment is all it takes to change person life...anyway hope they can find the three missing people...pretty sad man..esp the foreman..who went back to save his colleagues and got trapped in stead..pretty brave hor..dun even noe i will do the same thing anot...really hope he survive..he dun deserve to die man....n e guy died...may he in peace..sad case......
gotta sleep le..later muz wake up v early man...
"Friendship..will it last through times no matter wat or will it lost its colour over time"
logged ; 4:44 AM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
ARGH...
ARGHHHHHH I AM SO F**KING STRESSED UP.....i juz cannot concentrate on my books..so many things to remember...and the weather is sooooo HOT......
juz looked at my electronics past year papers...I DUNNO HOW TO DO!!~ realised my concepts not tt strong..esp the analysis part..i dying le..i dying le...
I'm just so not ready...how to fight the war....haizz
无时无刻想你 飞到你旁陪你
我身不由己 控制不了自己的情绪
想跟你往离岛去 潜水跟钓鱼
时刻再守候你 听你说说道理
不管风雨都再等你
我想再几十年之后再想起
一定比那瓶蜂蜜 来得甜蜜
logged ; 12:06 AM
Monday, April 19, 2004
moving into the final preparations....are u ready to come along?
yawnz..woke up with a running nose..urgh
monday le..3 more days to exams loh...wo yao jia you!!!
yest wasn't that productive..dunno why..juz cannot get into the mood to study...urgh...how can i feel liddat at this stage..maybe is coz of my maths..juz cannot get grasp of the formulas..sianzzz.....hope today will be a betta one...
in a way i just hope that exams can start asap...dunno why...i juz wanna get it done and over with..but then on the other hand...i juz feel i am so unprepared..unlike e rest...tiz sem like got a lot ppl very hardworking...feeling a bit of stress liao..
dunno la..juz hope exams can be over v fast..frankly speaking i dun care how well i gonna do le..i cannot wait for the holidays to come...looking forward to it actually....
motto of the day: treat any little joy as a bonus to your life..and u will be so much happier..=)
logged ; 9:48 AM
Saturday, April 17, 2004
The 7 Days Countdown..r u ready gentlemen?
hmm...din blog for 2 days le..dun really noe wat to write..nothing happening these days..been mugging..down to 7 days le..well...still going on ok..but not at a v ideal pace..hope to pick up asap..
earlier on took bus home in e morning...was listening to music and looked out the window..into the sky..into the surroundings...got a kind of v relaxed feeling..dunno how to describe..juz feel happy n relaxed...hmm actually if i duno alot of things and juz live in a world of my own...daydream bout my hopes n dreams...is'nt it perfect..? life will be so much happier man..
yawnz..time to sleep le...juz watched arsenal ....well done ppl...good performance..hail henry n co....
the ability to dream is a gift...may not happen in life..but it does happen at least once in ur memory
夜已深
思她也
笨敬累
要睡也
haha...crap poem..but i like it...lOlz..
logged ; 4:57 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
他已让她找到它了。。。...
found the song nice...
dedicate to my ex stead...
我一直相信 只要撑得过雨季 流过的眼泪 就有意义
我一直相信 幸福不只是造句 还好我用尽全力 坚持下去
因为情人的眼睛 看得见流星 能在最黑的夜里 得到勇气
因为紧握的手心 有温暖的力气 能让我和你 守护着约定
我把自己交给你 只要永远就可以
不在乎倾盆大雨 我和你在一起
把明天交给我 只要还在呼吸
为你微笑哭泣 已经是我生命中 最美的奇迹
all right i not in love k guys?..i lost my stead le...=(...sob sob..
but then glad he found his someone..=P...the frozen igualan had melted...-_-"
logged ; 12:48 AM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
我又胖了。。哈哈哈。。。。
arghhh...wat a super duper warm day...!!!~
these days had been very hot man..cannot take it man...hate the weather..make me feel grumpy and heaty and sleepy...arghhh...
went to CMPB for my re-enlistment checkup..think my eyesight got worse le..the MO like got difficulty assessing my eyesight..hmmm...anyway doc said i grown fatter since disruption...hahahaha..n indeed i had...oh man...i am heavier by 5-6 kgs!!!!~ darnz...my PNS officer asked me wat happened...she asked me why..when i told her my pes status..den i said..coz i am obese la..so pes BP loh...then she replied.."i noe..i mean WHY U GROWN FATTER AGAIN?"...lOlz....heck care la..=P i may be fat..but i am happy...to eat all those yummy food..haha...hmm...maybe time to shed a bit of the fats la..shall tink bout tt during holz..
so hot so hot...today haben study...whole afternoon at CMPB...haizz...now gotta go for tuition le...maybe study later tonight ba...hope i can tahan thru the night..hope.. hope..hope..
wonder how the soci paper today...=P
logged ; 6:30 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Longest ever Entry...=P
wahz..first time i got so many long comments..esp even from ang...impressed impressed....
anyway...after reading all these comments...hmm...i nv felt that their reserves are too much in the first place..coz in the first place u will nv noe wat will happen even for tomolo..for eg on Sept 11 2001, when u woke up at 8am...u got ever tot that in 12 hrs' time, an incident is gonna take place and change the world situation in a drastic way? or have ever you tot that actually in years' to come, more people n maybe including me or u, goona be diagnosed with kidney failure..the prob is that no one ever noe wat gonna happen..but we all know diaylsis gonna cost a lot..henceforth it is nv bad to have lots of reserves..esp is for charitable cause..who knows u guys r donating for myself or urself actually..nobody knows...
as for the COEs having salaries n things like such..err..actually i tink is pretty reasonable..c'mon..juz becoz they r in charitable organization..u expect them to work for free? they oso got families to feed, they oso got their own lives to lead, we cannot expect them to work for free rite? All those staff are there to work for their living, henceforth i dun c the reason why they shd be treated differently juz becoz they r working for a charity organization...for eg let's say..ppl ask us to work in NKF..no salaries, no bonuses, only three meals per day to make sure u get by each day...will u do it? let's get real..no one will haf such gold heart to do it loh...so i tink as long the staff r not drawing unreasonably high salaries...i'm okie with it manz....perhaps given the recent bad publicity...the NKF mgt shd be bit more transparent in the usage of their reserves..maybe then ppl will stop critisizing it?
As for the stars being paid and such..i not really sure r they being paid...i believe at most they r given a nominal appearance fee right? This i not v sure..but if Jenn is correct..then pretty sad la..but then wat to do right? is a practical world..maybe that's why u dun get to c big names coming to e NKF shows..coz i believe the appearance fees r nt much loh..so usually not many big names r willing to come..as for the prizes..hmmm..sad to say la..if dun haf those prizes ..i believe the donations wun be that much loh...in a way...u gotta c it this way..for eg..u spend abt 50-100k on the prizes..but end up u got 6+ millions bucks in donations..den i will say is worth it lahz..coz...in the end u wun be able to reach tt amt w/o the prizes..
and now for those "risky" performances..sometimes...i juz feel those r done in very bad taste..obviously for some stunts..we noe there is minimal danger...the artises still act like v dangerous liddat..trying to invoke the feelings...v distasteful loh..but i recognized the fact that some of the stunts r of reasonable risks..so i admire those aritises for their commitment..but i hate it when they act v pitiful to invoke feelings...left a very bad feeling in me...sometimes juz realised..WHY cannot Sporeans juz donate..juz need to make a few calls only mah...as long u got the means to do it..then do it la...dun need to wait till kena entertained by those "risky" stunts den donate rite...reflect a bit badly on our society in a way....but then..since they proved to be successful..then so be it...after all to me..i donated coz for the NKF patients...i dun care bout the artises actually...as long i can manage...even 5 bucks also betta than nothing rite? =)
as for zoe tay..errr..haha..i dunno lehz..sometimes i felt she v "fake" lehz..not tt i hate her..but sometimes..juz cannot sense that true sincerity la...not a fan of her anyway..so I DUN CARE..thou she pretty good at gaining sympathy..LOlz..
In conclusion..even thou the donation shows r not done in good taste...still rem guys..we donate for the patients..not for anyone else...so dun care too much bout the shows loh..anyway i stressed again..who noes one dae is our turn to be on that show rite? CHOI!!!~ DUN HIT ME....
i had a dream..i dreamt tt i can organize a outdoor carnival...an outdoor concert in S'pore..i felt that S'pore lack such event liddat lehz..something like the Taiwan outdoor concerts..or Britain's Party In the Park...can haf lots of singers performing..ppl partying...got carnval games...then ppl muz pay to come..and abt 80 per cent of proceedings can be donated to charity..that will be cool rite? We can party n yet do charity..but dun tink is possible..but then is a dream ma...juz hope i got the chance to realise it one day...haha...meanwhile i dream on....
anyway now time for yest diary....yest was pretty good..got studied...and my presentations are all over..wooohoo...thou yest one i din really do well.....abnormally nervous..dunno why lehz..anyway wun get to c my GE mates like Jason Cuiqing Cindy and Xinying le..u guys muz study hard ah....see ya guys next sem ba..nice working wif u ppl for the proj..=)
some small little thing happened yest..thou insignificant..but i was happy..n that was enuff..actually i not sure i supposed to be happy anot..but heck care la...
later got test...GOD BLESS ME...AMEN HALLELUJAH AMBITHABHA ...wateva...juz bless me..=P
hmmm wonder got ppl got the patience to read till here anot..haha...first time i post such a long one...but heck care...wo gao xin jiu hao..
if u can see the line...then u surely r my loyal visitor...gif u a kiss...muacks...haha
ps..Jenn..my reply long enuff?
logged ; 8:20 AM
Monday, April 12, 2004
AUNTIE...你要勇敢地活下去！！！
hmm...had a rather slow paced day today..i guess..had my third league match tis morning..won 6-5..but rather disappointed in my performance..allowed the opponents to come back from 6-2 down..tot i can play much better..maybe is the heat..maybe is the tiredness..duno..hate morning games anyway...
went home for lunch..coz my stead abandoned me...he now got new love..dun want me liao..haizz....haha..went to tuition after that..hmm hope she can do well for her test tomolo...=P..haf confidence in her..after that went to ntu to study on my own...hmm...still stuck wif that dynamics..lasted only 2+ hrs..before gg home to do my presentation...realised i may not haf enuff time for my rev..die die die..
watched the NKF show juz now..felt v sad for some of the patients...guess it is really agony for them to be in such state...one particular story invoked alot of feelings from me...got this auntie..v poor thing..slogged n slogged for her family...n neglected her illness..end up she got the kidney prob n cannot work le..n got abandoned by her husband and children...i felt particularly upset wif her children..how can they juz abandon their mum like tt....to me..even how sick ur parents..u shd nv abandon ur parents..NEVER EVER...i always tell myself i owed alot to my parents...esp when seeing them falling sick while slogging for me..u can commit any sin..but to abandon ur parents liddat...is the worst of all loh..simply sux..wonder how her kids felt watching the sad state of their mama on national tv...maybe they wun feel anything at all..BASTARDS...felt realli sad for the auntie...admired her optimism n courage..saw some of the stunts done by the local artises...made me wonder why we will only donate when seeing ppl do risky stunts..cannot we jz donate meh?....dunno lehz...felt weird..maybe e pscyhological effect i guess...anyway made some calls ..not for the artises...but for that auntie...i felt v sad for her....
later got my last presentation..things dun feel good...cannot get into the gear..hope later things juz turn out fine...gotta sleep le....i need to intensify my rev tix week le...GUYS BLESS ME!!!~ =p
OH YAH good luck to the nus 3 cheap guests for their exams tomolo...=P
logged ; 1:31 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2004
奇迹
我一直相信 只要撑得过雨季 流过的眼泪 就有意义
我一直相信 幸福不只是造句 还好我用尽全力 坚持下去
因为情人的眼睛 看得见流星 能在最黑的夜里 得到勇气
因为紧握的手心 有温暖的力气 能让我和你 守护着约定
我把自己交给你 只要永远就可以
不在乎倾盆大雨 我和你在一起
把明天交给我 只要还在呼吸
为你微笑哭泣 已经是我生命中 最美的奇迹
logged ; 9:04 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
A NIGHT OF JOKE...
-stretches-
ooo..juz woke up..still feeling a bit tired..shd i go back to sleep a little bit more?...=P
had a pretty good day yesterday...did a bit of studying...well..at least i completed a chap of electronics n a chap of dynamics...surely i deserve a pat right?..but then i still not sure i noe the concepts v well anot..hmm...nvm..
stayed at home the whole dayz...then in e evening went to tubbie hse to watch arsenal match..wow...glad that they won...not the best performance..but then it was impt to get e 3 pts no matter wat...hope they will keep on going from here...jia you GUNNERS....milan playing tonight..hope they can recover from e shameful performance..
after the match...went to ntu with fush to study...first time i went to NTU at such hours...pretty refreshing...we drove around ntu...exploring it..lOlz..saw many ppl studying man...so stressed....anyway managed to studied till 3am? or around there la..
but then something eerie happened when we about to leave.....
it was 3 plus am..abit windy..
n i got a bit tired le...so we decided to pack up n leave...but fush said she wanna walk around..so we decided walk around...n during the walk...i made up lame ghost jokes in the sch...lOlz...really lame..then we decided to go home le....as we got into the car...fush suddenly realised she cannot start the engine..apparently she cannot turn the ignition key..the switch seemed to be locked...tt was strange...i nv see such situation before..where got cannot turn the key one right?
so i got out of the car....see is there anything wrong...nothing..all seemed normal..we checked the security system...checked the switch..checked if e key was damaged....nothing at all...all r normal...just then..a strong wind gushed thru us...felt a bit cold suddenly..then i realised...errr...could it be the "NTU spirits" at work..after all i keep making fun at them whole night..oh no...me and toopid mouth...a cold shiver went down my spine...told fush why dun we took a cab home and take the spare key to try..after all..we cannot seem to find any fault...fush was determined to try one last time.....still cannot!!~ URGH....how weird man...
JUST THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
when she wanna try again...fush tot that the steering wheel looked ugly in its slanted position so decided to shift it back to the upright positiion...and TAH TAH!!~ the engin got started!!!~
so ppl...in case u r as blur as the two of us...rem...ur *&%&^$ steering wheel must be in the upright position before u start tt engine..
and yah..fush..being a perfectionist does reap rewards..CRAP man...
anyway went driving ard jurong before going home..so exciting..lOlz...
logged ; 12:04 PM
Friday, April 09, 2004
CRAP OR CRAB? WHO CARES..aren't they the same?
HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY TO ALL!!!!~
woohoo...dunno wat is good friday all about...but i dun care haha..coz is a holiday..n i luv holiday...
feeling bored..no one online..studied till sian....wat shd i type...hmm...
oh yah..first of all i will like to express my gratitude to ms QQ...thanx for aCC me yest..thou i noe u tired le...thanx youz!!~
next..i will like to thanx...
AC MILAN, ARSENAL n REAL MADRID.....
thanx guys..for going out of Champ League..i noe u all did it for my good..so tt now i no need to follow CL..and concentrate on my studies..esp when the semis are during my exams period..thanx alot guyz..touched tt u ppl care for me...
oh next...jenn's blog had unfortunately passed away due to unfortunate circumstances le...so sad...throughout its time with us...it had provided fun, laughter, and alot of entertainment for the everyone of us..not forgetting its great and never ending contribution to the anti Chilli movement...on behalf of all, i will like pay the highest tribute to it....i will also like my visitors to join me in a moment of silence....
also..another blog, belonged to ivy, had also on e verge of leaving us...i am v sad bout it..coz it had been a companion for us...a window to our dearest fren's innermost feelings..hope it can make it thru and be strong again...i will like to appeal to all....to try and make it pass its danger period..n hope it can survive..
after so many sad news....i got a good new to share with u guys...Chilli is injured!!!! nobody can describe the joy in the country...ppl now can org soccer matches w/o the fear of the appearance of deadly Chilli Virus...the virus..firstly originated from the man himself in 1995, had been around throuout the CSS soccer fraternity since..ppl suffering from such virus..tend to be in the world of his own..self delusion..and bullish bout his own ability...such virus tend to be in a body for 3mths - 9 yrs...but with the injury to Chilli...the virus is presently bein contained..so ..wat u guys waiting for? Let's Play Soccer..GO GO GOALLLL
Past week...we had seen a lot of sad blogs entries..entries which not many can understand...esp particular 2 persons' blogs..only got the smiley faces comments..wat does smiley face implies? i dunno..
anyway...hope all of us will b happy...sad stuff...let's put aside...keep in a box..n we shall nv open tt box again..
他与它
你的世界已没有了他
却少了个它
没有了它
你又何能接受新的他
何时它会回来
现在
以后
还是永远都不会
没人晓
也只能靠他
相信它
拥抱他
i can write poems!!!!
haha..maybe i shd go study chinese culture..to hell with engineering...=
logged ; 4:52 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Life is a blank map...
saw ivy's reply to my blog...feel like wanna say something
hey ger..actually i also not sure whether i can do as i said anot..but i wanna try..cos i believe that if u can do tt..then u wun feel hurt anymore..actually u been thru alot ger..mine is nothing compared to urs..u changed....i really mean CHANGED alot..u r so different from the old ivy..i dunno is a good thing anot..in a way u cares much more..but then i dun c the jovial side of u so often le..nv haf i see u so wrecked down by a guy..maybe tiz time..u r for real?
but ..life is liddat..haf u ever wonder there r so many heartbreaks in our lives? coz there is only one true happiness for us..n as long we haben find it..we will keep on going experiencing heartbreaks...it was nv ez juz to let go..it was nv ez to pretend nothing haf happen n wish ppl all e bests...in fact it gonna be near impossible..coz we all r humans..we got emotions....things will nv be the same as in the past..the mark will always be there...u can nv pretend nothing had happen..that is life...but tink again...imagine life is a blank piece paper with only two points...YOU n Happiness..actually...thruout our life...everything we do..everything we experience..every heartbreak or pain we felt..every mark of that..is a small little path that we drew on that piece of paper..eventually we will one day managed to complete that path with our small little marks..n reached the point "Happiness"...
But if u fell le..and stay there...u will forever be stuck at that path...u can only see the happiness at ur point..but u can nv reach there unless u decice to walk again..to find another mark of path towards it..ger..once u fell...no one can help u get up again...only u urself can do it..if u think u just lie there n hope one day that person will come back and hold u up..think again...there isn't much such ppl out there..maybe he oreadi walked miles n miles ahead of u on e way to happiness already..while u stuck at there...do u tink he will come back..i dun tink so...i tot of that before in my life..but that ger..i nv see her anymore..so wat the use right? Frens will only walked past u...gif u words of encouragement..but eventually they haf their own lives..they can gif u encouragement..but eventually they will walk on too..to find their happiness...SO it is only left to u only..u urself..only u urself can dust off the mark n stand up..n walk on once again..u nv wat will actually happen unless u walk on again
it not going to be ez..in fact i not sure i had done that already..maybe i still in that spot..that hole..maybe wat i typed juz now is for myself too..HAHAHA...remember ger..in this life...no one will bother whether u going to stand up n walk on anymore anot..frens will only do that much for u...it is up to u....u live not becoz of ur family, ur frens or ur love...u live becoz u r wat u r..becoz u r here to live..so only u can decide whether to walk on or stay in that hole of disappointment....
It is normal to stay in that hole of disappointment for a while..is normal..coz we all haf emotions..juz like wat i felt over past week...but then one day, one day u gonna say "hey that is enuff, time to go n meet the future"...i dunno wat future can gif me, can bring me to..but at least i willing to go n find out....betta than to be in that black hole..
i juz hope my fren will do the same...dunno when ..but then hope one day..she can embrace the light of future....coz she been in that hole for too long le....=)
ps: 无声的爱。。。拥抱彼此吧。。
Life is a blank map..it is for u to explore and drew out the paths..each experience is a path..be it good or bad...but once u stopped drawing..u will nv find the place u ought to be end up in..
logged ; 10:06 AM
ARGHHHHHHHHH MILAN IS ALSO OUT OF CHAMP LEAGUE!!!!!!!!!!
I GOT NO TEAM TO SUPPORT LE!!!!!!!!!!!
logged ; 9:25 AM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
LACK OF SLEEP CAUSE DEATH? MY FOOT....
AHHHH..sleepy man...juz counted....i haben sleep for 60+ hours le..woohoo...unbelievable...am i GOD or wat....
had another long day again...third long dae in a row le..tired man...mentally n physically...but i luv long days..keep me occupied..n not stone n tink of stupid things..good good..muz keep my energy levels going..had my graphics quiz today..hmm..not bad la...spent few hrs revising on it only...still can complete my model...tink ok le ba..juz hope the tutor dun penalize me alot for not producing the projections views..I JUZ WANNA PASS...PLSSSS......
had lunch n dinner wif the meteor zoo..long time nv all eat together le..tink i been missing from their clique for a long time..felt great to sit down n crap together again....exams r getting nearer le..i getting cold feet liao man..but i muz work hard..coz i wanna pass..dunno wanna go into which stream also...like electronics.but then dun tink i can get in..aiya..concentrate on exams first..went for ENS module review..expecting to be brief more bout exams topics...end up..listen to a bunch of old men tell stoopid stories..ARGHHH...been cheated by a bunch of old smokers....
TODAY GOT MY FIRST TUITION PAY CHECK..ahahaha..so happy..finally got money in liao...thou not much..but can tide me over...heheehe....kena snooked by the student again today..asked me wat is allotrope...got me there..i forgot le..anyway promised i will explain v detail to her next session..i shall read up...hohoho..my chem sux...
tink tomolo gonna be another long day..good good...hohohohoho....alot of ppl happy tt arsenal lost...but nvm..i gracious loser one...chelsea deserved to win....arsenal dunno wat the fuck up....but nvm..i am disappointed..but i gracious, unlike some alex bastard or gerard moron..alwiz find excuses..well done chelsea..hope milan dun go out..otherwise i no team support in CL liaoz..
realised a fren of mine got come n read my blog one..so surprised n touched...when u asked bout how i feeling...thou we dunno each well...dun c or tok to each other often enuff..but thanx for ur concern man...come my blog muz post something lehz..dun alwiz keep quiet oh..anyway if u managed to c tiz..THANX U....
爱她并不是拥有她。。。而是祝福她。。要她快乐哦。。。。=）
logged ; 10:38 PM
WAT A BLACK BLACK WEEK...
haiz..arsenal lost again...real madrid lost....
haiz...this week haf been so black for me......arsenal out of 2 competitions le...real is out too..milan haben won tiz week...maybe they will b knocked out tomolo tooo....u nv noe how suay i can get....=(
maybe later my quiz..i will flunk..coz i forgot wat to do...maybe i lost my notes..maybe...
HABEN SLEPT FOR 2 NIGHTS LE....so proud of myself...CAN U DO IT???
logged ; 5:48 AM
yawnz..another long day today...so tired...din slept last night...actually got la...slept for 2 hrs in e morning before gg sch...juz cannot get to sleep at all...maybe is that coffee...maybe is the supper? dunno...
had presentation tiz morning..din really do well..rather..is a reasonable one..but i din managed to put up my best..tot i can make it even betta...maybe the lack of sleep la..went for lects n tuts..so proud of myself..haha..understood wat the tutors said..skipped maths tutorial thou..gave up on the tutor le..went to computer room at south spine to study....v cosy place man..tink i found my spot liao..went to CAD lab later to practise my Pro E...hmm..managed to grasp most of the concepts..hope tomolo wun fail...pray hard....
been on alone these days..felt v relaxed...to be on my own...no worries...maybe i shd carry on tt way...see how la...gotta start my intensive revisions le...
tired..gotta sleep liao...later watch soccer....
dun wanna tink bout anything more........
谢谢你。。。一个陪伴我的朋友。。
logged ; 12:19 AM
Sunday, April 04, 2004
juz heard this song on my winamp..long time nv heard this song le....v nice..v powerful voice...if i only i can play it on my blog..anyway..
我的故事 也许比较特别 走过的路 也许比较迂回
黑暗之中 全凭着直觉 Keep my faith watch my steps 一步步 靠直觉
也许有天 生命中会出现 那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个Mr. Perfect 只要他 善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 不急在眼前 I can wait I will Pray
也许有天 生命中会出现 那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个Mr. Perfect 只要他 善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 希望他了解 不管迷惘或坚决 都是我的某一面
我并不追求完美 只要能 用心体会 每一天 都是Better day
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 陪着我 一天一点 让生命 能变得更美
logged ; 8:13 PM
I LOVE SOCCER!!!~ only it can make me happy
argh..tired..juz back from my soccer match..super duper tired..played in rain and made running so tough..but still was fun thou we lost 1-0...i luv playing soccer...the feeling so shiok..so happy...made me forget all my troubles..=) if only the rain din spoilt the game..
yest was a boring day..stayed home..tried to forced myself to study...managed to study a bit..but keep dozing off hehe....went to JP..bought some stuff and met ivy to get CD from her..din realised she oso put a card or rather "fu" ,which she made one, in the bag too..haha....tt was v sweet of her..the "fu" is v cute..THANX IVY!!!~ hope i will be blessed =)
so arsenal lost..so sad...before the match already feeling bad bout it..end up..we really lost...haiz..pretty disappointed..coz i dun tink they deserve to lose..but then even thou i hate to say..credit man utd...they made it v hard for arsenal...haiz..but still i tot it shd be a draw...hope it dun spell the downfall of arsena...even thou i noe alot of ppl waiting for arsenal to fall..hope not..or else i will b v v v sad...i tot we did so well so far..if all the hard work going to be gone in a week..it will be so cruel...*pray hard*
did something stoopid today..hmm..realised i shd not do it..sorta become worse for me....haiz..but since do liao..then suan le..wat it meant to be, it will be..
going to study a bit later le.....hope i dun doze off...i juz wanna study now..
logged ; 7:14 PM
Saturday, April 03, 2004
ARGHHHHHHHH....
One of those screwed up nights again..when i feel fucked up...juz dun feel things going right for me....n it seem like affecting the ppl ard me too..sorry bout tat..
to a fren -
i noe it is nv easy to trust people again once u lost that faith, once u felt betrayed..i noe coz i been thru it before..i felt betrayed before...n from then on...i nv trust ppl..i still nv.....i juz hope u can one say be able to stand up tall n put ur faith in the ppl ard u....is hard..but i hope u can do it..coz to see u like tat..i oso v sad....u no longer the one i used to noe...n if juz becoz of him...i dun tink is worth it...is hard..but i can pray for u...coz me myself..i still cannot trust ppl yet...i hope one day i will be able to trust again too....
another advice... ppl can be close frens not becoz of coincidence...is becoz of fate n becoz of the efforts put in...if u lose a fren juz becoz u tink the relationship is too close for comfort...then i dun tink is worth it...frens shd communicate...frens shd resolve probs n not avoid them...and FRENS ARE DEFINITELY NOT SOMEONE U MAKE USE OF WHEN U NEED THEM....i hope one day u will realised that..i really do....tk good care of urself..for ur own sake plz......
to another fren
sorry for moaning to u..sorry for all the grumbles..sorry for the all tantrums...i noe i been doing all that to u...i juz dunno..sometimes i felt i really wanna let out....anyway i noe u been in some confusing state too...hope things will get clearer for u....like wat u told me....
I AM A MooooooooooooooooOANEEEEERRRRR
SCREW ME!!!!!!~~~~~
logged ; 2:12 AM
Friday, April 02, 2004
simple life.....
oooo...another week ended le...did i do much this week?...i oso duno..seem like i did quite a number of things...but productive?...i hope so...dun really noe...
had a long day..woke up late for physics...end up rushing to my E & S class..took a cab man..arghh...my money!! anyway had my very first presentation...pretty glad..everything went v well...and the tutor gave me good remarks and said he gave me high marks..soooo happpy......first time in NTU..got teacher praised me..first time i got high marks wor..even thou was for some useless module..but at least i got high marks...so who cares...i nv out for A grades...i juz a simple guy who want a simple life...wanted to share my joy wif someone..but then..haizz...suan le..kinda spoilt my day i guess...
went to practice my CAD...argh..sux at it..do until i v pek chek...looking at the rest of meteor zoo..they seem so good at it..haiz..tink only i sux in studies now..n yet i still not bucking up..dunno..i felt pressurised....they all so hardworking...i juz wanna pass..but seeing my frens all striving for As..i juz sorta felt a bit out...am i really so useless..why cant i go for As too...why i juz not tt ambitious...dunno..maybe i juz too simple..
at nite go find yan at NUS....supposed to study wif him..but i fell asleep..too tired..see....u touched anot?...i tired oso go find u loh....otherwise u wanna test me again..diaoz~
tok to some frens these days...got a fren told me...she dun feel like falling in love again..she said she scared of getting hurt...said she prefer flings nowadays...r/s w/o any emotional attachment..juz break when dun want to continue..like tt wun b hurt...but then wat is a r/s without emotional attachment? it seem fun..but then can we really do it?
are we able to be so emotionally detached? .....anyway hope my fren will find someone who she loves and can trust..i sure she can..maybe she juz being playful..i dunnoo...
tok to yueqi too...realised she is really so nice to ppl ard her...dunno..i juz felt she is way too nice loh...end up she like din get anything good in return..she said is nice to bless ppl..but then...issit worthwhile?
maybe i too pessimistic..but i am really skeptical bout our society...i feel sometimes it doesn't pay to be nice...ppl wun gif a damn bout the good things u do for them loh..they will only rem wat wrong u had done..that is the soceity we r in loh..maybe they will rem the good things...only when u die...issit so? ppl paid tribute only ppl died...there r some ppl u can b nice to..but there r some..i juz feel..is betta to b juz moderately nice...what the point of being so nice...protect urself more impt i guess...sound selfish? but i tink that is the only way to survive..so for god's sake..yueqi..rem..dun be so nice to ppl ard u....look before u help....
sleepy..dunno where all the ppl gone to..not many ppl online..maybe they r mugging away...unlike me....useless bum slacking ard..only good at moaning.....haiz..i juz wanna pass....i no need As...
I AM A SIMPLE GUY...I JUZ WANNA BE HAPPY...
logged ; 11:09 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Well Done Lions...Thank for ur performance..
read QQ blog today...she talked bout we shall happy with the little things which happened around us..kinda agreed on that..i guessed many of us r too engrossed or obsessed with the pursuit of our goals, our needs, our dreams...that we actually neglect the small little stuffs which been happening ard us...we failed to see the joy in that..coz our minds are filled with pursuing joy at a macro level..
these days...kinda see the point mentioned in her blog..starting to appreciate the little things that people do for me..begin to extract joy from the little things that i did, the little happenings around me..found out that by doin so..life dun seem that gloomy after all...BUT ...i juz hope...i not walking into the same old hole once again..got tt familiar feeling again...
ANYWAY...
main point of the day....Well Done Singapore Lions....
i know people will be skeptical bout tonight performance against the Japaneses..."we still lost", "we will nv beat Japan", "Japan put water la"....
yeah...we lost, yeah no doubt Japan is a class or two above us, and definitely yeah..Japan shd haf killed us in the first half....
BUT.....
To me..the objective of the game is nv to win..it is to learn..to measure ourselves against the top Asian team...and i tink the team did themselves proud..prob they gave the Japaneses a tad too much respect...the midfield was non existent in the first half...Japan got the room to roam n create..end up...we shd be dead n buried by Halftime..but then we din..coz of one word - Determination....
U can see the players played their hearts out, i tink they prob noe they not going to match the Japs in terms of skills..but they can make up for hard running..for die hard play...n they did just that....esp in 2nd half..u can see that they worked really hard...juz a pity that they cannot hold on for that draw...wat a boost it will be for Spore if it ended in draw...
One point to note is that e performance of our Young Lions...i tink cept for Nazri, Mirko, Aide, Mani and prob Kim Leng...the rest of the players are all under 25 yrs old..some r even only 19, 20 yrs old...and they are up against players plying their trade in Europe...but they did not buckle..in fact i tink they are great..they made Nakata n Co worked hard for the ball loh...imagine ourselves playing against Nakata n Co..i prob will just stunned there..haha...but the likes of Agu. Bai, Hassan Sunny...played well...n i tink they will learnt alot...that's the way...gif the young players match exposure against big teams..sure they will learn n improve
Another thing...send them to overseas training stints..look at Indra....he become better player after going to England..he played with his brains, he definitely more composed n disciplined now....that wat professional trg stints will do for u...AND INVEST IN THE YOUTH la..i tink the Young Lions r improving le...and time to let the old guards like Nazri Mirko n Co go....FAS..r u listening to me?????? haha!!~
haha...i shall actually apply for Chairman of FAS ahz...or Director of Football....
well done spore!!~ but den dun get too overboard here...we still got lots to improve..we still not there yet..but i tink we r finally on e right track...i like the way Kim Poulsen and Raddy work....Keep It Going..
Hmmm...today like wrote alot....anyway mostly r crap...but WO SHUANG JIU HAO...
WO YAO KUAI LE...WO BU YAO SHI WANG LE.....
一天一点爱上你.. 一天一点被占领..不懂什么原因..我心绪忙得不能停..在快乐烦恼之间旅行
logged ; 2:06 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
pitter patter rain rain rain...
rain rain....i love rains at night...cept when i wanna do outdoor activities =P...so cooling..so refreshing..
today almost missed my exams..dunno wat happened..i juz slept so soundly..n din even noe my alarm clock went off..lucky i woke up in time..if not ....die man....although i dun tink i gonna do well for it anyway..
boring day..nothing interesting to write about...so juz sit back n relax in the coolness of rain....=)
logged ; 10:20 PM
GRAPHICS SUX BIG TIME...
haiz..sian..later having graphics paper...i juz hate graphics...considered to be my worst module together with dynamics...juz attempted the toopid graphics past yr papers..cannot do...sian..demoralised liao
anyway yan juz told me he booked a chalet le..so .igualans...we r going to have our chalet!!!~ 4-5 July 2004...place: SENTOSA... hope everyone can make it..we all long time dun haf gathering le..tiz is a good opportunity..=P..
sian...i tink i going to flunk graphics..unless tomolo i got the special ability to c the shape..
logged ; 12:28 AM
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
i dun wanna to count anymore le.....
我怕了。。。
logged ; 12:08 AM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
woohoo...finally another paper had finished...4 more to go...argh..cannot wait for holidays to come..i wanna go out n play...
tink today maths paper i shd be able to pass..not necessarily score well..but tink can pass...wateva juz happy it was over..after all i din really do much maths this sem..so if can..i tink i happy liao..
was very tired after the paper..hence went home n nap..instead of joining e guys for rev..den slept for a while..got bored..went online n rot...happened to meet sam there..he still v sian bout his hp..curse tt assehole who picked his hp..hate ppl who pick n dun return...*opps*...haha..then yan also came online..he too feeling super bored..haha..so the three no lifers went to JE for kopi break..den went sam hse to play PS..haha..long time nv go his hse le..=P...hmm..i like exams over le hor?...lOlz..
at night went to watch sleague..oooo...long time no watch le...quite great to be back...=P..enjoyed the game..pretty good game..n nice crowd too...the atmosphere..the "ref kayu" chanting, the action..man i certainly missed them alot..=P...so happy to be back wif Sleague...yoohoo....
yawnz..a bit sleepy..today let myself played for half day..enuff le..recharged le..time to hit the books again!!!! exams kuai dian finish ah...
28 days loh..
logged ; 10:37 PM
I LUV TO HOLD BUDDHA LEGS..WILL HE HELP ME?
hmm wondering shd i go zzz..or keep on doing my maths..
argh..i hate University mathematics..simply sux..only 5-6 tutorials per sem yet they taught so much...kaozz...alwiz got a feeling tt i nv took maths in Uni one..cept when come to exams..
okie..i juz being sore here...i shd haf practise on my own..and not juz before the exams..but then...I AM LAZY MAH..wat to do...sometimes feel tt i pretty useless oso..22 yrs old still can tink..still so diao er lang dang..i see some of my frens already studying v hard coz they wanna haf a good future..hmm..sometimes i feel so uselss..why i cannot be like them? -shakes head- when i will be serious...
okie...holding my dearest exam pal's (Mr Buddha) leg now..sometimes i oso feel i damn zai...1 sem work..i 1 day can finish...juz tt i not good only..but i managed to cover it k...hmmm...is tt supposed to be a good thing after all? hope mr Buddha bless me again..
k la..yan said i shd go sleep..then tomolo got "golden god" for the paper..hope so...maybe i wake up a bit earlier to go thru the notes again..
oh anyway ARSENAL R THE CHAMPIONS...so happy...i tink they really deserved it..and i admired tt team spirit..long time i nv such spirit in Arsenal le...v happy for them...to those who laugh at Arsenal at e start of the season....HOHOHO...Gunners proved u ppl wrong!!!!~
Champions Always Champions Always Ole Ole Ole...
保护
你把门轻轻关上离开他的谎话 失望比悲伤强烈疲倦的泪留下
你心里有幅相框 爱应该像个天堂 结果爱原来更像 无止尽的流浪
你忽然停止说话靠在我肩膀上 一瞬间心在摇晃有抱你的渴望
翻往日美好时光 让我们乱了方向 我想起无辜的她正在等我回家
很抱歉不能陪你到天亮 很抱前不能像从前一样 空荡的夜风变凉
把我的外套披上 答应我 好好的让我送你回家
很抱歉不能抱紧你不放 很抱歉只能藉给你肩膀 无助时逃进过往
是最危险的地方 我只能 这样保护你 请你原谅
我们站在月光下影子拖的好长 像怀念无法隐藏被摊在大街上
你的泪无声落下 打湿了我的胸膛 现在的情不自禁会是以后的伤
Another Andy Hui song for u ppl..tink his new album rox..=P...
Tomolo night i gonna go watch Sleague...Albirex Vs Tampines..long time nv c sleague le..wanna juz go out tomolo...anyone wanna join me? hehe....as usual i will b alone...=)
Oh and sam lost his hp today..super suay..anyone got spare fone to lend him?
Welcome to the Lost Hp Club brudder...=P
today pretty happy...=) little things happened again
27 days...
logged ; 1:00 AM
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Defeated..but hope i not OUT....
MORE ON WAR ON COE....
It proved to be a black saturday for the Fat's Army. The Republic launched 2 attacks on State of Dynamics and City Comm Studies on Saturday. However due to some thunderstorm on the night before, the Army's preparations were seriously hampered. As a result, the troops were seriously beaten and defeated. But the Republic vowed to come back stronger with the next wave of attacks. Stay tuned...
Haiz...so sianz...dun tink i gonna do well for dynamics le...keeping my finger crossed for Comm Studies though..today din do much...read n studied a bit bout maths..gonna push my self for it...ARGHH!!! but i juz keep feeling so sleepy n thirsy..issit sign of sickness ah?..mmmm
26 days and counting....
logged ; 6:24 PM
Saturday, April 24, 2004
i am so dead....
sick n got 2 papers in 4 hrs times...n i not yet prepared fully...
bless me..
logged ; 3:01 AM
Friday, April 23, 2004
WAR HAD BEGUN....你怕了吗？ 我很怕。。。。
Good Evening ladies n gentlemen
here another special edition of Bui-NewAsia special report on War on Common Engineering 1. At 1330 hrs today (Spore time), Republic of Ah Fat launched its first wave of attacks on Common Engineering Kingdom. The attacks were concentrated on the state of Electronics and lasted for 2.5 hours. Both troops battled ferociously and damages were severe. Due to a lack of terrain understanding, the Republic troops suffered a couple of setbacks in the attacks. Mainly on the Op Amp and Logic Gates towns. At press time, damageds were still being estimated, but the Republic is hoping for a limited damages.
Commander of Army, General Benjing said, " Our troops mainly suffered terrible losses at the towns of Ops Amp & Logic Gates. The tricky terrains of Ops Amp were pretty unexpected and we admitted a lack of study was done on logic gates. However we r hopeful that damages are kept at a minimum. We can only pray now as we doing the calculations of the losses."
According to The Black House, there will be 2 series of attacks on Saturday. However the times are yet to be announced, insiders are predicting an attack in morning and afternoon each. And the areas are believed to be State of Dynamics and The Comm Studies County.
Stay tuned for the next edition of WAR ON COMMON ENGINEERING...
nitez n sweet dreams..
logged ; 12:16 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
The Battle is about to begin......
BREAKING NEWS
The Republic of Ah Fat had earlier, in a press conference, announced that it will be launching a war on the terrorist plagued nation, United Kingdom I of Common Engineering. The first wave of attacks are expected to commence in around 18 hours' time. The Republic's spokeperson had also commented that the war will be expected to last for 2 weeks, and no efforts will be spared in bringing the terrorist nation down and restore peace to the region. The United Kingdom I of COE consists of a total of 8 states and the Republic will be launching a series of aerial and land attacks on the states over the period of 2 weeks. According to reliable sources, the first wave of attacks is likely to occur at the G161 state of Electronics at 1330 hours, 22 Apr 2004 , Singapore time.
Leading the troops this time will be the seasoned General Benjing, also known as Mr Fat to his foes on the battlefield. In the press conference, he said "This time, the war is not going to be easy at all. Preparations had been less than ideal, but then we are hopeful, with the determination of our troops and probrably with a bit of luck, we are able to defeat this demonic state. We asked the public to render their utmost support to the troopers. Of course support from a particular person will be extremely great, but then we dun ask for much. Together we shall charge, live or perish, we fight for the peace and glory of Lord Ah Fat!!!!~"
Indeeed strong words from a strong leader. However intelligences revealed that the Republic's preparations had been poor, hampered by the occasional technical problems like "MSN", "Soccer" and "Coffee Breaks". Hopefully GOD will help them this time.
For more updates on the war, stay tuned to Bui-NewsAsia. The place where all the latest things happen.
logged ; 7:36 PM
The Bridges had fallen...will I?
woohoo!!~ chelsea lost..so happy...=P okie la..since is yan fav team..dun be mean...but i dun like the way makelele fake...super blatant loh...put even pires to shame...anyway way to go monaco..tink they r really good ahz..no fluke..
had a pretty good day...managed to clear some doubts over electronics..tink left part 2 to go....muz gambatte!! argh 1 more day le....hope i ready to go...hmmm found out genting trip changed to 9th May le...mean i cannot go..n tink the rest of igualans not going too...pretty disappointed...coz i been looking forward to the trip..nv travel wif the guys before....haizzz...but then...wat to do..hope there is next time loh..=(
ohh nicol highway collapsed earlier today..pretty surprised such thing happend in spore..alwiz tot spore structures pretty safe..but then this juz show how u predictable life can be...one moment is all it takes to change person life...anyway hope they can find the three missing people...pretty sad man..esp the foreman..who went back to save his colleagues and got trapped in stead..pretty brave hor..dun even noe i will do the same thing anot...really hope he survive..he dun deserve to die man....n e guy died...may he in peace..sad case......
gotta sleep le..later muz wake up v early man...
"Friendship..will it last through times no matter wat or will it lost its colour over time"
logged ; 4:44 AM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
ARGH...
ARGHHHHHH I AM SO F**KING STRESSED UP.....i juz cannot concentrate on my books..so many things to remember...and the weather is sooooo HOT......
juz looked at my electronics past year papers...I DUNNO HOW TO DO!!~ realised my concepts not tt strong..esp the analysis part..i dying le..i dying le...
I'm just so not ready...how to fight the war....haizz
无时无刻想你 飞到你旁陪你
我身不由己 控制不了自己的情绪
想跟你往离岛去 潜水跟钓鱼
时刻再守候你 听你说说道理
不管风雨都再等你
我想再几十年之后再想起
一定比那瓶蜂蜜 来得甜蜜
logged ; 12:06 AM
Monday, April 19, 2004
moving into the final preparations....are u ready to come along?
yawnz..woke up with a running nose..urgh
monday le..3 more days to exams loh...wo yao jia you!!!
yest wasn't that productive..dunno why..juz cannot get into the mood to study...urgh...how can i feel liddat at this stage..maybe is coz of my maths..juz cannot get grasp of the formulas..sianzzz.....hope today will be a betta one...
in a way i just hope that exams can start asap...dunno why...i juz wanna get it done and over with..but then on the other hand...i juz feel i am so unprepared..unlike e rest...tiz sem like got a lot ppl very hardworking...feeling a bit of stress liao..
dunno la..juz hope exams can be over v fast..frankly speaking i dun care how well i gonna do le..i cannot wait for the holidays to come...looking forward to it actually....
motto of the day: treat any little joy as a bonus to your life..and u will be so much happier..=)
logged ; 9:48 AM
Saturday, April 17, 2004
The 7 Days Countdown..r u ready gentlemen?
hmm...din blog for 2 days le..dun really noe wat to write..nothing happening these days..been mugging..down to 7 days le..well...still going on ok..but not at a v ideal pace..hope to pick up asap..
earlier on took bus home in e morning...was listening to music and looked out the window..into the sky..into the surroundings...got a kind of v relaxed feeling..dunno how to describe..juz feel happy n relaxed...hmm actually if i duno alot of things and juz live in a world of my own...daydream bout my hopes n dreams...is'nt it perfect..? life will be so much happier man..
yawnz..time to sleep le...juz watched arsenal ....well done ppl...good performance..hail henry n co....
the ability to dream is a gift...may not happen in life..but it does happen at least once in ur memory
夜已深
思她也
笨敬累
要睡也
haha...crap poem..but i like it...lOlz..
logged ; 4:57 AM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
他已让她找到它了。。。...
found the song nice...
dedicate to my ex stead...
我一直相信 只要撑得过雨季 流过的眼泪 就有意义
我一直相信 幸福不只是造句 还好我用尽全力 坚持下去
因为情人的眼睛 看得见流星 能在最黑的夜里 得到勇气
因为紧握的手心 有温暖的力气 能让我和你 守护着约定
我把自己交给你 只要永远就可以
不在乎倾盆大雨 我和你在一起
把明天交给我 只要还在呼吸
为你微笑哭泣 已经是我生命中 最美的奇迹
all right i not in love k guys?..i lost my stead le...=(...sob sob..
but then glad he found his someone..=P...the frozen igualan had melted...-_-"
logged ; 12:48 AM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
我又胖了。。哈哈哈。。。。
arghhh...wat a super duper warm day...!!!~
these days had been very hot man..cannot take it man...hate the weather..make me feel grumpy and heaty and sleepy...arghhh...
went to CMPB for my re-enlistment checkup..think my eyesight got worse le..the MO like got difficulty assessing my eyesight..hmmm...anyway doc said i grown fatter since disruption...hahahaha..n indeed i had...oh man...i am heavier by 5-6 kgs!!!!~ darnz...my PNS officer asked me wat happened...she asked me why..when i told her my pes status..den i said..coz i am obese la..so pes BP loh...then she replied.."i noe..i mean WHY U GROWN FATTER AGAIN?"...lOlz....heck care la..=P i may be fat..but i am happy...to eat all those yummy food..haha...hmm...maybe time to shed a bit of the fats la..shall tink bout tt during holz..
so hot so hot...today haben study...whole afternoon at CMPB...haizz...now gotta go for tuition le...maybe study later tonight ba...hope i can tahan thru the night..hope.. hope..hope..
wonder how the soci paper today...=P
logged ; 6:30 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Longest ever Entry...=P
wahz..first time i got so many long comments..esp even from ang...impressed impressed....
anyway...after reading all these comments...hmm...i nv felt that their reserves are too much in the first place..coz in the first place u will nv noe wat will happen even for tomolo..for eg on Sept 11 2001, when u woke up at 8am...u got ever tot that in 12 hrs' time, an incident is gonna take place and change the world situation in a drastic way? or have ever you tot that actually in years' to come, more people n maybe including me or u, goona be diagnosed with kidney failure..the prob is that no one ever noe wat gonna happen..but we all know diaylsis gonna cost a lot..henceforth it is nv bad to have lots of reserves..esp is for charitable cause..who knows u guys r donating for myself or urself actually..nobody knows...
as for the COEs having salaries n things like such..err..actually i tink is pretty reasonable..c'mon..juz becoz they r in charitable organization..u expect them to work for free? they oso got families to feed, they oso got their own lives to lead, we cannot expect them to work for free rite? All those staff are there to work for their living, henceforth i dun c the reason why they shd be treated differently juz becoz they r working for a charity organization...for eg let's say..ppl ask us to work in NKF..no salaries, no bonuses, only three meals per day to make sure u get by each day...will u do it? let's get real..no one will haf such gold heart to do it loh...so i tink as long the staff r not drawing unreasonably high salaries...i'm okie with it manz....perhaps given the recent bad publicity...the NKF mgt shd be bit more transparent in the usage of their reserves..maybe then ppl will stop critisizing it?
As for the stars being paid and such..i not really sure r they being paid...i believe at most they r given a nominal appearance fee right? This i not v sure..but if Jenn is correct..then pretty sad la..but then wat to do right? is a practical world..maybe that's why u dun get to c big names coming to e NKF shows..coz i believe the appearance fees r nt much loh..so usually not many big names r willing to come..as for the prizes..hmmm..sad to say la..if dun haf those prizes ..i believe the donations wun be that much loh...in a way...u gotta c it this way..for eg..u spend abt 50-100k on the prizes..but end up u got 6+ millions bucks in donations..den i will say is worth it lahz..coz...in the end u wun be able to reach tt amt w/o the prizes..
and now for those "risky" performances..sometimes...i juz feel those r done in very bad taste..obviously for some stunts..we noe there is minimal danger...the artises still act like v dangerous liddat..trying to invoke the feelings...v distasteful loh..but i recognized the fact that some of the stunts r of reasonable risks..so i admire those aritises for their commitment..but i hate it when they act v pitiful to invoke feelings...left a very bad feeling in me...sometimes juz realised..WHY cannot Sporeans juz donate..juz need to make a few calls only mah...as long u got the means to do it..then do it la...dun need to wait till kena entertained by those "risky" stunts den donate rite...reflect a bit badly on our society in a way....but then..since they proved to be successful..then so be it...after all to me..i donated coz for the NKF patients...i dun care bout the artises actually...as long i can manage...even 5 bucks also betta than nothing rite? =)
as for zoe tay..errr..haha..i dunno lehz..sometimes i felt she v "fake" lehz..not tt i hate her..but sometimes..juz cannot sense that true sincerity la...not a fan of her anyway..so I DUN CARE..thou she pretty good at gaining sympathy..LOlz..
In conclusion..even thou the donation shows r not done in good taste...still rem guys..we donate for the patients..not for anyone else...so dun care too much bout the shows loh..anyway i stressed again..who noes one dae is our turn to be on that show rite? CHOI!!!~ DUN HIT ME....
i had a dream..i dreamt tt i can organize a outdoor carnival...an outdoor concert in S'pore..i felt that S'pore lack such event liddat lehz..something like the Taiwan outdoor concerts..or Britain's Party In the Park...can haf lots of singers performing..ppl partying...got carnval games...then ppl muz pay to come..and abt 80 per cent of proceedings can be donated to charity..that will be cool rite? We can party n yet do charity..but dun tink is possible..but then is a dream ma...juz hope i got the chance to realise it one day...haha...meanwhile i dream on....
anyway now time for yest diary....yest was pretty good..got studied...and my presentations are all over..wooohoo...thou yest one i din really do well.....abnormally nervous..dunno why lehz..anyway wun get to c my GE mates like Jason Cuiqing Cindy and Xinying le..u guys muz study hard ah....see ya guys next sem ba..nice working wif u ppl for the proj..=)
some small little thing happened yest..thou insignificant..but i was happy..n that was enuff..actually i not sure i supposed to be happy anot..but heck care la...
later got test...GOD BLESS ME...AMEN HALLELUJAH AMBITHABHA ...wateva...juz bless me..=P
hmmm wonder got ppl got the patience to read till here anot..haha...first time i post such a long one...but heck care...wo gao xin jiu hao..
if u can see the line...then u surely r my loyal visitor...gif u a kiss...muacks...haha
ps..Jenn..my reply long enuff?
logged ; 8:20 AM
Monday, April 12, 2004
AUNTIE...你要勇敢地活下去！！！
hmm...had a rather slow paced day today..i guess..had my third league match tis morning..won 6-5..but rather disappointed in my performance..allowed the opponents to come back from 6-2 down..tot i can play much better..maybe is the heat..maybe is the tiredness..duno..hate morning games anyway...
went home for lunch..coz my stead abandoned me...he now got new love..dun want me liao..haizz....haha..went to tuition after that..hmm hope she can do well for her test tomolo...=P..haf confidence in her..after that went to ntu to study on my own...hmm...still stuck wif that dynamics..lasted only 2+ hrs..before gg home to do my presentation...realised i may not haf enuff time for my rev..die die die..
watched the NKF show juz now..felt v sad for some of the patients...guess it is really agony for them to be in such state...one particular story invoked alot of feelings from me...got this auntie..v poor thing..slogged n slogged for her family...n neglected her illness..end up she got the kidney prob n cannot work le..n got abandoned by her husband and children...i felt particularly upset wif her children..how can they juz abandon their mum like tt....to me..even how sick ur parents..u shd nv abandon ur parents..NEVER EVER...i always tell myself i owed alot to my parents...esp when seeing them falling sick while slogging for me..u can commit any sin..but to abandon ur parents liddat...is the worst of all loh..simply sux..wonder how her kids felt watching the sad state of their mama on national tv...maybe they wun feel anything at all..BASTARDS...felt realli sad for the auntie...admired her optimism n courage..saw some of the stunts done by the local artises...made me wonder why we will only donate when seeing ppl do risky stunts..cannot we jz donate meh?....dunno lehz...felt weird..maybe e pscyhological effect i guess...anyway made some calls ..not for the artises...but for that auntie...i felt v sad for her....
later got my last presentation..things dun feel good...cannot get into the gear..hope later things juz turn out fine...gotta sleep le....i need to intensify my rev tix week le...GUYS BLESS ME!!!~ =p
OH YAH good luck to the nus 3 cheap guests for their exams tomolo...=P
logged ; 1:31 AM
Sunday, April 11, 2004
奇迹
我一直相信 只要撑得过雨季 流过的眼泪 就有意义
我一直相信 幸福不只是造句 还好我用尽全力 坚持下去
因为情人的眼睛 看得见流星 能在最黑的夜里 得到勇气
因为紧握的手心 有温暖的力气 能让我和你 守护着约定
我把自己交给你 只要永远就可以
不在乎倾盆大雨 我和你在一起
把明天交给我 只要还在呼吸
为你微笑哭泣 已经是我生命中 最美的奇迹
logged ; 9:04 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2004
A NIGHT OF JOKE...
-stretches-
ooo..juz woke up..still feeling a bit tired..shd i go back to sleep a little bit more?...=P
had a pretty good day yesterday...did a bit of studying...well..at least i completed a chap of electronics n a chap of dynamics...surely i deserve a pat right?..but then i still not sure i noe the concepts v well anot..hmm...nvm..
stayed at home the whole dayz...then in e evening went to tubbie hse to watch arsenal match..wow...glad that they won...not the best performance..but then it was impt to get e 3 pts no matter wat...hope they will keep on going from here...jia you GUNNERS....milan playing tonight..hope they can recover from e shameful performance..
after the match...went to ntu with fush to study...first time i went to NTU at such hours...pretty refreshing...we drove around ntu...exploring it..lOlz..saw many ppl studying man...so stressed....anyway managed to studied till 3am? or around there la..
but then something eerie happened when we about to leave.....
it was 3 plus am..abit windy..
n i got a bit tired le...so we decided to pack up n leave...but fush said she wanna walk around..so we decided walk around...n during the walk...i made up lame ghost jokes in the sch...lOlz...really lame..then we decided to go home le....as we got into the car...fush suddenly realised she cannot start the engine..apparently she cannot turn the ignition key..the switch seemed to be locked...tt was strange...i nv see such situation before..where got cannot turn the key one right?
so i got out of the car....see is there anything wrong...nothing..all seemed normal..we checked the security system...checked the switch..checked if e key was damaged....nothing at all...all r normal...just then..a strong wind gushed thru us...felt a bit cold suddenly..then i realised...errr...could it be the "NTU spirits" at work..after all i keep making fun at them whole night..oh no...me and toopid mouth...a cold shiver went down my spine...told fush why dun we took a cab home and take the spare key to try..after all..we cannot seem to find any fault...fush was determined to try one last time.....still cannot!!~ URGH....how weird man...
JUST THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
when she wanna try again...fush tot that the steering wheel looked ugly in its slanted position so decided to shift it back to the upright positiion...and TAH TAH!!~ the engin got started!!!~
so ppl...in case u r as blur as the two of us...rem...ur *&%&^$ steering wheel must be in the upright position before u start tt engine..
and yah..fush..being a perfectionist does reap rewards..CRAP man...
anyway went driving ard jurong before going home..so exciting..lOlz...
logged ; 12:04 PM
Friday, April 09, 2004
CRAP OR CRAB? WHO CARES..aren't they the same?
HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY TO ALL!!!!~
woohoo...dunno wat is good friday all about...but i dun care haha..coz is a holiday..n i luv holiday...
feeling bored..no one online..studied till sian....wat shd i type...hmm...
oh yah..first of all i will like to express my gratitude to ms QQ...thanx for aCC me yest..thou i noe u tired le...thanx youz!!~
next..i will like to thanx...
AC MILAN, ARSENAL n REAL MADRID.....
thanx guys..for going out of Champ League..i noe u all did it for my good..so tt now i no need to follow CL..and concentrate on my studies..esp when the semis are during my exams period..thanx alot guyz..touched tt u ppl care for me...
oh next...jenn's blog had unfortunately passed away due to unfortunate circumstances le...so sad...throughout its time with us...it had provided fun, laughter, and alot of entertainment for the everyone of us..not forgetting its great and never ending contribution to the anti Chilli movement...on behalf of all, i will like pay the highest tribute to it....i will also like my visitors to join me in a moment of silence....
also..another blog, belonged to ivy, had also on e verge of leaving us...i am v sad bout it..coz it had been a companion for us...a window to our dearest fren's innermost feelings..hope it can make it thru and be strong again...i will like to appeal to all....to try and make it pass its danger period..n hope it can survive..
after so many sad news....i got a good new to share with u guys...Chilli is injured!!!! nobody can describe the joy in the country...ppl now can org soccer matches w/o the fear of the appearance of deadly Chilli Virus...the virus..firstly originated from the man himself in 1995, had been around throuout the CSS soccer fraternity since..ppl suffering from such virus..tend to be in the world of his own..self delusion..and bullish bout his own ability...such virus tend to be in a body for 3mths - 9 yrs...but with the injury to Chilli...the virus is presently bein contained..so ..wat u guys waiting for? Let's Play Soccer..GO GO GOALLLL
Past week...we had seen a lot of sad blogs entries..entries which not many can understand...esp particular 2 persons' blogs..only got the smiley faces comments..wat does smiley face implies? i dunno..
anyway...hope all of us will b happy...sad stuff...let's put aside...keep in a box..n we shall nv open tt box again..
他与它
你的世界已没有了他
却少了个它
没有了它
你又何能接受新的他
何时它会回来
现在
以后
还是永远都不会
没人晓
也只能靠他
相信它
拥抱他
i can write poems!!!!
haha..maybe i shd go study chinese culture..to hell with engineering...=
logged ; 4:52 PM
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Life is a blank map...
saw ivy's reply to my blog...feel like wanna say something
hey ger..actually i also not sure whether i can do as i said anot..but i wanna try..cos i believe that if u can do tt..then u wun feel hurt anymore..actually u been thru alot ger..mine is nothing compared to urs..u changed....i really mean CHANGED alot..u r so different from the old ivy..i dunno is a good thing anot..in a way u cares much more..but then i dun c the jovial side of u so often le..nv haf i see u so wrecked down by a guy..maybe tiz time..u r for real?
but ..life is liddat..haf u ever wonder there r so many heartbreaks in our lives? coz there is only one true happiness for us..n as long we haben find it..we will keep on going experiencing heartbreaks...it was nv ez juz to let go..it was nv ez to pretend nothing haf happen n wish ppl all e bests...in fact it gonna be near impossible..coz we all r humans..we got emotions....things will nv be the same as in the past..the mark will always be there...u can nv pretend nothing had happen..that is life...but tink again...imagine life is a blank piece paper with only two points...YOU n Happiness..actually...thruout our life...everything we do..everything we experience..every heartbreak or pain we felt..every mark of that..is a small little path that we drew on that piece of paper..eventually we will one day managed to complete that path with our small little marks..n reached the point "Happiness"...
But if u fell le..and stay there...u will forever be stuck at that path...u can only see the happiness at ur point..but u can nv reach there unless u decice to walk again..to find another mark of path towards it..ger..once u fell...no one can help u get up again...only u urself can do it..if u think u just lie there n hope one day that person will come back and hold u up..think again...there isn't much such ppl out there..maybe he oreadi walked miles n miles ahead of u on e way to happiness already..while u stuck at there...do u tink he will come back..i dun tink so...i tot of that before in my life..but that ger..i nv see her anymore..so wat the use right? Frens will only walked past u...gif u words of encouragement..but eventually they haf their own lives..they can gif u encouragement..but eventually they will walk on too..to find their happiness...SO it is only left to u only..u urself..only u urself can dust off the mark n stand up..n walk on once again..u nv wat will actually happen unless u walk on again
it not going to be ez..in fact i not sure i had done that already..maybe i still in that spot..that hole..maybe wat i typed juz now is for myself too..HAHAHA...remember ger..in this life...no one will bother whether u going to stand up n walk on anymore anot..frens will only do that much for u...it is up to u....u live not becoz of ur family, ur frens or ur love...u live becoz u r wat u r..becoz u r here to live..so only u can decide whether to walk on or stay in that hole of disappointment....
It is normal to stay in that hole of disappointment for a while..is normal..coz we all haf emotions..juz like wat i felt over past week...but then one day, one day u gonna say "hey that is enuff, time to go n meet the future"...i dunno wat future can gif me, can bring me to..but at least i willing to go n find out....betta than to be in that black hole..
i juz hope my fren will do the same...dunno when ..but then hope one day..she can embrace the light of future....coz she been in that hole for too long le....=)
ps: 无声的爱。。。拥抱彼此吧。。
Life is a blank map..it is for u to explore and drew out the paths..each experience is a path..be it good or bad...but once u stopped drawing..u will nv find the place u ought to be end up in..
logged ; 10:06 AM
ARGHHHHHHHHH MILAN IS ALSO OUT OF CHAMP LEAGUE!!!!!!!!!!
I GOT NO TEAM TO SUPPORT LE!!!!!!!!!!!
logged ; 9:25 AM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
LACK OF SLEEP CAUSE DEATH? MY FOOT....
AHHHH..sleepy man...juz counted....i haben sleep for 60+ hours le..woohoo...unbelievable...am i GOD or wat....
had another long day again...third long dae in a row le..tired man...mentally n physically...but i luv long days..keep me occupied..n not stone n tink of stupid things..good good..muz keep my energy levels going..had my graphics quiz today..hmm..not bad la...spent few hrs revising on it only...still can complete my model...tink ok le ba..juz hope the tutor dun penalize me alot for not producing the projections views..I JUZ WANNA PASS...PLSSSS......
had lunch n dinner wif the meteor zoo..long time nv all eat together le..tink i been missing from their clique for a long time..felt great to sit down n crap together again....exams r getting nearer le..i getting cold feet liao man..but i muz work hard..coz i wanna pass..dunno wanna go into which stream also...like electronics.but then dun tink i can get in..aiya..concentrate on exams first..went for ENS module review..expecting to be brief more bout exams topics...end up..listen to a bunch of old men tell stoopid stories..ARGHHH...been cheated by a bunch of old smokers....
TODAY GOT MY FIRST TUITION PAY CHECK..ahahaha..so happy..finally got money in liao...thou not much..but can tide me over...heheehe....kena snooked by the student again today..asked me wat is allotrope...got me there..i forgot le..anyway promised i will explain v detail to her next session..i shall read up...hohoho..my chem sux...
tink tomolo gonna be another long day..good good...hohohohoho....alot of ppl happy tt arsenal lost...but nvm..i gracious loser one...chelsea deserved to win....arsenal dunno wat the fuck up....but nvm..i am disappointed..but i gracious, unlike some alex bastard or gerard moron..alwiz find excuses..well done chelsea..hope milan dun go out..otherwise i no team support in CL liaoz..
realised a fren of mine got come n read my blog one..so surprised n touched...when u asked bout how i feeling...thou we dunno each well...dun c or tok to each other often enuff..but thanx for ur concern man...come my blog muz post something lehz..dun alwiz keep quiet oh..anyway if u managed to c tiz..THANX U....
爱她并不是拥有她。。。而是祝福她。。要她快乐哦。。。。=）
logged ; 10:38 PM
WAT A BLACK BLACK WEEK...
haiz..arsenal lost again...real madrid lost....
haiz...this week haf been so black for me......arsenal out of 2 competitions le...real is out too..milan haben won tiz week...maybe they will b knocked out tomolo tooo....u nv noe how suay i can get....=(
maybe later my quiz..i will flunk..coz i forgot wat to do...maybe i lost my notes..maybe...
HABEN SLEPT FOR 2 NIGHTS LE....so proud of myself...CAN U DO IT???
logged ; 5:48 AM
yawnz..another long day today...so tired...din slept last night...actually got la...slept for 2 hrs in e morning before gg sch...juz cannot get to sleep at all...maybe is that coffee...maybe is the supper? dunno...
had presentation tiz morning..din really do well..rather..is a reasonable one..but i din managed to put up my best..tot i can make it even betta...maybe the lack of sleep la..went for lects n tuts..so proud of myself..haha..understood wat the tutors said..skipped maths tutorial thou..gave up on the tutor le..went to computer room at south spine to study....v cosy place man..tink i found my spot liao..went to CAD lab later to practise my Pro E...hmm..managed to grasp most of the concepts..hope tomolo wun fail...pray hard....
been on alone these days..felt v relaxed...to be on my own...no worries...maybe i shd carry on tt way...see how la...gotta start my intensive revisions le...
tired..gotta sleep liao...later watch soccer....
dun wanna tink bout anything more........
谢谢你。。。一个陪伴我的朋友。。
logged ; 12:19 AM
Sunday, April 04, 2004
juz heard this song on my winamp..long time nv heard this song le....v nice..v powerful voice...if i only i can play it on my blog..anyway..
我的故事 也许比较特别 走过的路 也许比较迂回
黑暗之中 全凭着直觉 Keep my faith watch my steps 一步步 靠直觉
也许有天 生命中会出现 那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个Mr. Perfect 只要他 善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 不急在眼前 I can wait I will Pray
也许有天 生命中会出现 那一个谁走进我的心里面
他不必是个Mr. Perfect 只要他 善良体贴 be my friend and my soul mate
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 希望他了解 不管迷惘或坚决 都是我的某一面
我并不追求完美 只要能 用心体会 每一天 都是Better day
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 Make me whole make me brave
我等的人会是谁 何时才出现 陪着我 一天一点 让生命 能变得更美
logged ; 8:13 PM
I LOVE SOCCER!!!~ only it can make me happy
argh..tired..juz back from my soccer match..super duper tired..played in rain and made running so tough..but still was fun thou we lost 1-0...i luv playing soccer...the feeling so shiok..so happy...made me forget all my troubles..=) if only the rain din spoilt the game..
yest was a boring day..stayed home..tried to forced myself to study...managed to study a bit..but keep dozing off hehe....went to JP..bought some stuff and met ivy to get CD from her..din realised she oso put a card or rather "fu" ,which she made one, in the bag too..haha....tt was v sweet of her..the "fu" is v cute..THANX IVY!!!~ hope i will be blessed =)
so arsenal lost..so sad...before the match already feeling bad bout it..end up..we really lost...haiz..pretty disappointed..coz i dun tink they deserve to lose..but then even thou i hate to say..credit man utd...they made it v hard for arsenal...haiz..but still i tot it shd be a draw...hope it dun spell the downfall of arsena...even thou i noe alot of ppl waiting for arsenal to fall..hope not..or else i will b v v v sad...i tot we did so well so far..if all the hard work going to be gone in a week..it will be so cruel...*pray hard*
did something stoopid today..hmm..realised i shd not do it..sorta become worse for me....haiz..but since do liao..then suan le..wat it meant to be, it will be..
going to study a bit later le.....hope i dun doze off...i juz wanna study now..
logged ; 7:14 PM
Saturday, April 03, 2004
ARGHHHHHHHH....
One of those screwed up nights again..when i feel fucked up...juz dun feel things going right for me....n it seem like affecting the ppl ard me too..sorry bout tat..
to a fren -
i noe it is nv easy to trust people again once u lost that faith, once u felt betrayed..i noe coz i been thru it before..i felt betrayed before...n from then on...i nv trust ppl..i still nv.....i juz hope u can one say be able to stand up tall n put ur faith in the ppl ard u....is hard..but i hope u can do it..coz to see u like tat..i oso v sad....u no longer the one i used to noe...n if juz becoz of him...i dun tink is worth it...is hard..but i can pray for u...coz me myself..i still cannot trust ppl yet...i hope one day i will be able to trust again too....
another advice... ppl can be close frens not becoz of coincidence...is becoz of fate n becoz of the efforts put in...if u lose a fren juz becoz u tink the relationship is too close for comfort...then i dun tink is worth it...frens shd communicate...frens shd resolve probs n not avoid them...and FRENS ARE DEFINITELY NOT SOMEONE U MAKE USE OF WHEN U NEED THEM....i hope one day u will realised that..i really do....tk good care of urself..for ur own sake plz......
to another fren
sorry for moaning to u..sorry for all the grumbles..sorry for the all tantrums...i noe i been doing all that to u...i juz dunno..sometimes i felt i really wanna let out....anyway i noe u been in some confusing state too...hope things will get clearer for u....like wat u told me....
I AM A MooooooooooooooooOANEEEEERRRRR
SCREW ME!!!!!!~~~~~
logged ; 2:12 AM
Friday, April 02, 2004
simple life.....
oooo...another week ended le...did i do much this week?...i oso duno..seem like i did quite a number of things...but productive?...i hope so...dun really noe...
had a long day..woke up late for physics...end up rushing to my E & S class..took a cab man..arghh...my money!! anyway had my very first presentation...pretty glad..everything went v well...and the tutor gave me good remarks and said he gave me high marks..soooo happpy......first time in NTU..got teacher praised me..first time i got high marks wor..even thou was for some useless module..but at least i got high marks...so who cares...i nv out for A grades...i juz a simple guy who want a simple life...wanted to share my joy wif someone..but then..haizz...suan le..kinda spoilt my day i guess...
went to practice my CAD...argh..sux at it..do until i v pek chek...looking at the rest of meteor zoo..they seem so good at it..haiz..tink only i sux in studies now..n yet i still not bucking up..dunno..i felt pressurised....they all so hardworking...i juz wanna pass..but seeing my frens all striving for As..i juz sorta felt a bit out...am i really so useless..why cant i go for As too...why i juz not tt ambitious...dunno..maybe i juz too simple..
at nite go find yan at NUS....supposed to study wif him..but i fell asleep..too tired..see....u touched anot?...i tired oso go find u loh....otherwise u wanna test me again..diaoz~
tok to some frens these days...got a fren told me...she dun feel like falling in love again..she said she scared of getting hurt...said she prefer flings nowadays...r/s w/o any emotional attachment..juz break when dun want to continue..like tt wun b hurt...but then wat is a r/s without emotional attachment? it seem fun..but then can we really do it?
are we able to be so emotionally detached? .....anyway hope my fren will find someone who she loves and can trust..i sure she can..maybe she juz being playful..i dunnoo...
tok to yueqi too...realised she is really so nice to ppl ard her...dunno..i juz felt she is way too nice loh...end up she like din get anything good in return..she said is nice to bless ppl..but then...issit worthwhile?
maybe i too pessimistic..but i am really skeptical bout our society...i feel sometimes it doesn't pay to be nice...ppl wun gif a damn bout the good things u do for them loh..they will only rem wat wrong u had done..that is the soceity we r in loh..maybe they will rem the good things...only when u die...issit so? ppl paid tribute only ppl died...there r some ppl u can b nice to..but there r some..i juz feel..is betta to b juz moderately nice...what the point of being so nice...protect urself more impt i guess...sound selfish? but i tink that is the only way to survive..so for god's sake..yueqi..rem..dun be so nice to ppl ard u....look before u help....
sleepy..dunno where all the ppl gone to..not many ppl online..maybe they r mugging away...unlike me....useless bum slacking ard..only good at moaning.....haiz..i juz wanna pass....i no need As...
I AM A SIMPLE GUY...I JUZ WANNA BE HAPPY...
logged ; 11:09 PM
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Well Done Lions...Thank for ur performance..
read QQ blog today...she talked bout we shall happy with the little things which happened around us..kinda agreed on that..i guessed many of us r too engrossed or obsessed with the pursuit of our goals, our needs, our dreams...that we actually neglect the small little stuffs which been happening ard us...we failed to see the joy in that..coz our minds are filled with pursuing joy at a macro level..
these days...kinda see the point mentioned in her blog..starting to appreciate the little things that people do for me..begin to extract joy from the little things that i did, the little happenings around me..found out that by doin so..life dun seem that gloomy after all...BUT ...i juz hope...i not walking into the same old hole once again..got tt familiar feeling again...
ANYWAY...
main point of the day....Well Done Singapore Lions....
i know people will be skeptical bout tonight performance against the Japaneses..."we still lost", "we will nv beat Japan", "Japan put water la"....
yeah...we lost, yeah no doubt Japan is a class or two above us, and definitely yeah..Japan shd haf killed us in the first half....
BUT.....
To me..the objective of the game is nv to win..it is to learn..to measure ourselves against the top Asian team...and i tink the team did themselves proud..prob they gave the Japaneses a tad too much respect...the midfield was non existent in the first half...Japan got the room to roam n create..end up...we shd be dead n buried by Halftime..but then we din..coz of one word - Determination....
U can see the players played their hearts out, i tink they prob noe they not going to match the Japs in terms of skills..but they can make up for hard running..for die hard play...n they did just that....esp in 2nd half..u can see that they worked really hard...juz a pity that they cannot hold on for that draw...wat a boost it will be for Spore if it ended in draw...
One point to note is that e performance of our Young Lions...i tink cept for Nazri, Mirko, Aide, Mani and prob Kim Leng...the rest of the players are all under 25 yrs old..some r even only 19, 20 yrs old...and they are up against players plying their trade in Europe...but they did not buckle..in fact i tink they are great..they made Nakata n Co worked hard for the ball loh...imagine ourselves playing against Nakata n Co..i prob will just stunned there..haha...but the likes of Agu. Bai, Hassan Sunny...played well...n i tink they will learnt alot...that's the way...gif the young players match exposure against big teams..sure they will learn n improve
Another thing...send them to overseas training stints..look at Indra....he become better player after going to England..he played with his brains, he definitely more composed n disciplined now....that wat professional trg stints will do for u...AND INVEST IN THE YOUTH la..i tink the Young Lions r improving le...and time to let the old guards like Nazri Mirko n Co go....FAS..r u listening to me?????? haha!!~
haha...i shall actually apply for Chairman of FAS ahz...or Director of Football....
well done spore!!~ but den dun get too overboard here...we still got lots to improve..we still not there yet..but i tink we r finally on e right track...i like the way Kim Poulsen and Raddy work....Keep It Going..
Hmmm...today like wrote alot....anyway mostly r crap...but WO SHUANG JIU HAO...
WO YAO KUAI LE...WO BU YAO SHI WANG LE.....
一天一点爱上你.. 一天一点被占领..不懂什么原因..我心绪忙得不能停..在快乐烦恼之间旅行
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