Sunday, October 24, 2004
yest practice wasn't particularly good..at least for me..sometimes i really wonder what i am doing in a choir..i cannot hold a note, i dun understand e scores, i always out of tune and my pitching sux...sometimes i just feel i'm pulling down the choir...feeling stressed to try n keep up wif the rest...maybe i shd haf realised...like to sing one matter, able to sing is another..having a interest in something may not mean i am good in it after all...come to think about it, i like alot of things and i am not good in any of them as well...maybe i shall consider quitting..
sometimes looking around, saw my frens having r/s probs, havin difficulties and dilemmas...dun really noe how to help dem after all..nv haf any experience..but then sometimes i'm envious of dem oso..after all their problems arose cos of the attachment they haf to their loved ones, coz got ppl care for them...for me..i nv been so attached to anyone either..n no one ever care tat much for me either...maybe some ppl will say i am so dumb to envy such problems..but sometimes i rather to haf such probs den to feel empty n lonely..watever i going mad
logged ; 6:02 AM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
a very cold night...been quite some time since i really blog..been trying to push myself to study but then i still been rather unproductive... hate this time of the semester...i will sub consciously go into depression..probrably i am someone who cannot stand stress..past few days haben really great in terms of work..but at least i enjoyed choir over e weekend..attendance was good..and u can c it really lift everybody's spirits..2 months left..hope we can make it thru..
logged ; 1:44 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
hmm..actually dun haf anything to write...more of dunno wat to write..suddenly i juz lost the feeling to blog..maybe coz been having a smooth time i guess...not much things happening in my life these days...
flu bug is in the air..take care ppl..alot of ppl falling sick..including myself..
logged ; 9:43 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
just now watched a documentary called "Bowling for Columbine" - a documentary on the Columbine shooting in 1999..n asked qns on why US haf such high rate of shooting crimes...interesting documentary..beri honest n straightfoward take on such issue...threw up alot of qns on the USA society which the Americans seemed so oblivious to...or rather qns which they dun wish to face n answer...nice nice..admired the effort of the director...he actually really did alot of things which probrably u or me wun be interested in at all....anyway the shooting took place on the day when USA bombed Kosovo...
In China, there is an art called " Changing Faces"...a national art i heard...how strange...i tot is an art which everyone is so capable of..how many times ppl like u or me r guilty of putting a different face when we interact with different ppl...there r ppl who can haf 2 faces...there can be ppl who haf plenty of faces...faces which we dunno which r true or fake..made me real skeptical of trusting ppl...sometimes....ever tot when u tok to someone..ppl like a long lost fren..a new found fren...the stranger who tried to sell u something...or even frens ard u everyday.....how much can u believe in wat they told u? how much can u actuallly trust them...i tink it gonna be hard...how can we really trust ppl...does trust come with risk...it certainly..so are we going to take it or juz walk away from "trust"... dunno...prob u nv noe..i suppse..call me pessimistic..call me someone who tink too much...but is real..isn't it?
had a super unproductive day..exams r only 23 days away...n i still so slack..sometimes i feel my body is screwed..cannot generate energy or isnt my lazy mind at work..i dono..i can plan wat i shd do for a day..but i juz cannot push myself to actually do it...what am i doing...urgh...been eating alot too...form of de-stress or sign of hidden disorder?
can mind really win over body?
logged ; 2:50 AM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
tiring week man...
sunday was ultra tiring...played match in the morning..kena whacked...haiz..i becoming more n more unfit...too long nv play outfield...felt disgusted with my performance...went for tuition after tt...shumin v guai for tis session..got did her hw somemore...good man...made me feel happier for e day...went for soccer kickaround at chengsong hse in the evening..quite a healthy no of our team turned up..had fun playing ard..but super shagged man..legs sore sia...
been rushing my lab reports..but the problem is most prob i dunno how to really discuss n comment on my results...urgh...tink betta discuss with ang n junhua...hope to get a clearer picture....
tonight had our last game in the futsal league...won 1-0..shd haf won even more...n i saved a penalty..hahaha...ok..tt guy shot was lousy..but still i saved...=) din qualify for the semis..the crucial link prob is our 6-0 loss on tt fateful raining dae..if we haf won tt match n actually we shd loh....we prob will qualify...haiz..next yr bah..at least our performance is betta than last yr...
urgh..i still got my comm skills presentation n sociology essay...sian..n i only 26 days away from exams...winnie n shumin having exams soon..so more tuition....piangz like so busy sia...haha...seem like i long time nv get into working mode..must tune liao...wish me luck n bless me pls..=P
logged ; 1:34 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
i feel like sleeping.....
logged ; 2:27 AM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
yest practice wasn't particularly good..at least for me..sometimes i really wonder what i am doing in a choir..i cannot hold a note, i dun understand e scores, i always out of tune and my pitching sux...sometimes i just feel i'm pulling down the choir...feeling stressed to try n keep up wif the rest...maybe i shd haf realised...like to sing one matter, able to sing is another..having a interest in something may not mean i am good in it after all...come to think about it, i like alot of things and i am not good in any of them as well...maybe i shall consider quitting..
sometimes looking around, saw my frens having r/s probs, havin difficulties and dilemmas...dun really noe how to help dem after all..nv haf any experience..but then sometimes i'm envious of dem oso..after all their problems arose cos of the attachment they haf to their loved ones, coz got ppl care for them...for me..i nv been so attached to anyone either..n no one ever care tat much for me either...maybe some ppl will say i am so dumb to envy such problems..but sometimes i rather to haf such probs den to feel empty n lonely..watever i going mad
logged ; 6:02 AM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
a very cold night...been quite some time since i really blog..been trying to push myself to study but then i still been rather unproductive... hate this time of the semester...i will sub consciously go into depression..probrably i am someone who cannot stand stress..past few days haben really great in terms of work..but at least i enjoyed choir over e weekend..attendance was good..and u can c it really lift everybody's spirits..2 months left..hope we can make it thru..
logged ; 1:44 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
hmm..actually dun haf anything to write...more of dunno wat to write..suddenly i juz lost the feeling to blog..maybe coz been having a smooth time i guess...not much things happening in my life these days...
flu bug is in the air..take care ppl..alot of ppl falling sick..including myself..
logged ; 9:43 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
just now watched a documentary called "Bowling for Columbine" - a documentary on the Columbine shooting in 1999..n asked qns on why US haf such high rate of shooting crimes...interesting documentary..beri honest n straightfoward take on such issue...threw up alot of qns on the USA society which the Americans seemed so oblivious to...or rather qns which they dun wish to face n answer...nice nice..admired the effort of the director...he actually really did alot of things which probrably u or me wun be interested in at all....anyway the shooting took place on the day when USA bombed Kosovo...
In China, there is an art called " Changing Faces"...a national art i heard...how strange...i tot is an art which everyone is so capable of..how many times ppl like u or me r guilty of putting a different face when we interact with different ppl...there r ppl who can haf 2 faces...there can be ppl who haf plenty of faces...faces which we dunno which r true or fake..made me real skeptical of trusting ppl...sometimes....ever tot when u tok to someone..ppl like a long lost fren..a new found fren...the stranger who tried to sell u something...or even frens ard u everyday.....how much can u believe in wat they told u? how much can u actuallly trust them...i tink it gonna be hard...how can we really trust ppl...does trust come with risk...it certainly..so are we going to take it or juz walk away from "trust"... dunno...prob u nv noe..i suppse..call me pessimistic..call me someone who tink too much...but is real..isn't it?
had a super unproductive day..exams r only 23 days away...n i still so slack..sometimes i feel my body is screwed..cannot generate energy or isnt my lazy mind at work..i dono..i can plan wat i shd do for a day..but i juz cannot push myself to actually do it...what am i doing...urgh...been eating alot too...form of de-stress or sign of hidden disorder?
can mind really win over body?
logged ; 2:50 AM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
tiring week man...
sunday was ultra tiring...played match in the morning..kena whacked...haiz..i becoming more n more unfit...too long nv play outfield...felt disgusted with my performance...went for tuition after tt...shumin v guai for tis session..got did her hw somemore...good man...made me feel happier for e day...went for soccer kickaround at chengsong hse in the evening..quite a healthy no of our team turned up..had fun playing ard..but super shagged man..legs sore sia...
been rushing my lab reports..but the problem is most prob i dunno how to really discuss n comment on my results...urgh...tink betta discuss with ang n junhua...hope to get a clearer picture....
tonight had our last game in the futsal league...won 1-0..shd haf won even more...n i saved a penalty..hahaha...ok..tt guy shot was lousy..but still i saved...=) din qualify for the semis..the crucial link prob is our 6-0 loss on tt fateful raining dae..if we haf won tt match n actually we shd loh....we prob will qualify...haiz..next yr bah..at least our performance is betta than last yr...
urgh..i still got my comm skills presentation n sociology essay...sian..n i only 26 days away from exams...winnie n shumin having exams soon..so more tuition....piangz like so busy sia...haha...seem like i long time nv get into working mode..must tune liao...wish me luck n bless me pls..=P
logged ; 1:34 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
i feel like sleeping.....
logged ; 2:27 AM
